Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Isadora Stands In The Way Of Progress

I've been ever so slowly cleaning out the basement office. Ever since I got sick 2 years ago there has been less and less work; plus the economy has really hit the advertising and marketing sectors hard. Two of my largest clients have closed their doors and the others have stripped down their market research departments to practically nothing.

It's depressing and uncomfortable to sift through papers in the basement so I've been using cloth grocery bags to drag the crap up into the living room.

As with most cats Isadora was initially suspicious of the new addition to her landscape ...


Once it was sniffed out to be safe, the comfort test was performed. I got 'the look' when I suggested she cuddle on any one of the dozens of spots set up for her ...


She scrunched and molded the bags to her liking. Her leg looks so long here ...


It didn't take long for her to feel comfy ...


Although she still keeps one eye on me just in case I decide to actually tackle the task ...


Since my heart's not in it anyway I'm more than happy to let Iza take charge of the paperwork for a bit.

It has been difficult to realize my business is gone. I need to dismantle accounts and check into tax status but I owe my accountant so much money I don't have the balls to call him.

The battle for disability benefits is getting nowhere and I have been looking for a job. I'm not going to go into that process now - it really brings me down to discuss it and then panic sets in.

It is what it is - and there are people in much worse shape than I am.

And on we go  ...

24 comments:

Jay Simser said...

Adorable. Let her sleep. Take a nap yourself. The paperwork will be there tomorrow.

Something will turn up job wise. I know it will. Mary Baker Eddy (I used to be a CS) said "Divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need." The operative word being need.

Sending Love and Light. j

Rambling Woods said...

Oh Dianne....to reach the point where you have to apply for disability if a real blow to the ego and then to be turned down is another body blow. I had such a hard time admitting to myself that I couldn't work and then the daunting task of applying for disability was awful...really awful and I felt like a useless piece of shit..I was very, very lucky that I was approved because my disability showed up clearly and I was so fucked up at the time. But I know others can't get it and it's awful. Why do such shitty things happen to the good people and you are the good people. Write me if you want...I do get it...love..Michelle

ellen abbott said...

Yes, it's been a dismal year for us too. Hopefully we still have a business. I do believe the economy is recovering it's just getting people to believe it.

Tracy said...

Dianne, I'm so sorry that you are going through this experience...deep breath! It's diffcult becuase you are mourning the loss of your business and having to sift through all the paperwork is fueling that...
Isadora is certainly adding her love to the situation...what an adorable photo.
hang in there...x0x0x0

Daryl said...

Its that irresistible smell of old paper .. put a postage stamp size paper or cardboard on the floor and Rose is on it .. Jack prefers laying on the dust covered top of the kitchen cabinets, I keep asking him to clean/dust it as long as he's up there but like all the men in my life he seems deaf to my voice ...

Reb said...

She is so cute stretched out there. I know haw hard it is to close down a business and how hard it is to admit you need help. Sadly, I was approved for Federal LTD, but not Provincial. Guess which actually pays enough to live on? Why the Province should have tougher standards than the Feds is beyond me though.

Good luck with your battle Dianne. I am sure things will eventually work out.

Vinny "Bond" Marini said...

I know about the decrease in business in that industry and I am hard pressed to look for a new job at this point. Isadora looks comfortable, here is hoping you get more comfortable

DJan said...

I retired in Spring 2008 just as the shit was hitting the fan for so many people. My annuities are 25% less, but it could have been worse. I'm glad I retired when I did, though, because just a few months after, the entire department was eliminated!

I am thinking about you and hoping it all turns out all right. Thanks for writing your posts with such honesty, it hurts to hear about it but it's so real. You are not alone.

Lynilu said...

It is a rough world right now. I retired, and I'm finding myself in the position of needing to find work because I will run out of funds long before I would have if the economy hadn't tanked. Oh well, that's life.

I love your kitty and her ownership attitude!

Hilary said...

I'm thinking best thoughts for you, Dianne. I hope things turn around for you soon. Hugs to you.

That creature is just too adorable.

Dianne said...

jay - she is adorable :) thanks
I think she reads the blog, I came home to find her in the sink and she's never been there before

rambling - I know you get it, thank you
I will e-mail you as soon as I can do so without crying
it's one of the reasons I don't post about all this, I can't stop the crying

ellen- dismal is a good word for it
I hope your business does well :)

tracey - thank you! mourning is a big part of it, I keep finding things that remind me how well I was doing and what good work I produced

Daryl - both of my guys like paper
and both of them create dust wherever they go
Iza is especially messy, she tracks litter and she doesn't clean herself that thoroughly
the funniest thing is to catch Siren watching her in the litter box, he looks outraged
he's a fussy clean fanatic

reb - sounds a bit like our Federal assistance is so much better than anything my particular state offers
all of it is crap though
meanwhile the Bush era tax welfare for the rich gets continued for at least another 2 years

vinny - it's a really rough time! and the holiday season makes it even more difficult
like I told rambling above, it just makes me weepy

DJan - I'm glad you got out when you did
and thank you for your kind words, I have always been a what you see is what you get kind of person
I find it easier to just tell the truth, then you never have to remember what you said ;)

lynilu - that's so unfair, to have to supplement your retirement because of the greed and mis-management of others
I have often said I will need to work 5 years past my death in order to pay for my funeral ;)

hilary - I moved the bags just to double check what's in there and she freaked out LOL
took her hours of sniffing and fussing to get them back the way she wanted
she's an odd girl :)

Au and Target said...

It is depressing isn't it? But at least you have cats to keep you company.

Mike said...

If you prove you can clean out basements I may hire you to come clean out mine.

ds said...

"MY bags, mine mine mine!" At least Isadora is lying on top of yours; Miss Moo would be inside it, scruffing through the papers...

I hope things turn around for you soon, Dianne.

Linda said...

I think Isadora is telling you - in her own way of course - to just relax and not worry about that paperwork for right now. There will be plenty of time to tackle it later and there's no sense in being depressed any sooner than you have to be.

Just take Hope and worry about the rest later (and I'll send you good thoughts in the meantime!)

Scott Oglesby said...

The best part of this post for me? Getting to see some of your books, and I likey! The first thing I do when I go to a friend’s house for the first time is check out their books. Then you really see the kind of person they are.

Anonymous said...

My Sammy would've got into the bag :)

Isadora looks lovely and quite contented. I am sorry to hear about your worries though. I do hope you get some good news soon. You deserve better *hugs*

~ Bobkat

Akelamalu said...

I can understand how depressing it must be to have to sift through that paperwork.

I'm sending Reiki to your situation Dianne, I hope something turns up soon for you. x

Knight said...

Ugh. I think you know I was working in ad marketing too and was laid off awhile back. That company still isn't back on its feet. It's so depressing. Is there anything else out there you can imagine doing for awhile just to get into the swing of things? Cat sitting for the wealthy for instance? You can make up a fancy flyer and leave them in the mailboxes of townhouse owners. Then you can steal the antiques in the townhouses and become wealthy.

Sallie (FullTime-Life) said...

Sending good thoughts your way and wishing there was more I could do. We have family members in the same position (laid-off); things have to improve soon.

Pagan Sphinx said...

That cat has a turquoise eye in one of those shots! I love it.

She is a beauty and so are you. :-)

Linda Reeder said...

Too bad we can't all lead a cat's life, or ar least Isadora's!
Your words struck me, "it really brings me down to discuss it and then the panic sets in". I think that's how our son feels after being without steady work for almost two years now. He doesn't want to talk about it. Period! But he does also have a tuxedo cat like yours who "comforts" him.

Madeleine said...

Hope a great opportunity comes up soon. Love your kitties. You can see mine at: http://scribbleandedit.blogspot.com/2010/12/hooked-on-haiku-for-noel.html :O)

Mare said...

I hope good things happen soon. Since you don't write about it in your blog, I hope you have some way of venting out some of that stress. One day at a time. That's my motto.