I have a few things clanging around in my head so I thought if I emptied them out I might have better focus.
I hate the blog roll on my sidebar. Actually I’ve never liked it. It’s a pain to keep up to date and I’ve always wondered who looks at it anyway. I have never found a new blog through a sidebar list. I either see a comment that intrigues me and I check out the blog or I follow a link in a post and discover someone I enjoy reading.
Two perfect examples of this are BUSTER and THORNE.
I found Buster at DARYL’S place. He is an adopted puppy sharing his life in NYC with an ever growing devoted following. His Mum and Dad seem like wonderful people, she has a great PLACE as well. In fact she's hosting an upcoming Haiku Festival so check it out. Sometimes blogging pets can get too cutesy for me but Buster keeps it real and is a wonderful spokesdog for adopting.
Through my friend PAGAN I found THORNE. She’s a kindred spirit. I’m going to talk more about Thorne in upcoming posts. She is a gardening goddess and a political ally and her blog reflects so many wonderful eclectic subjects.
So – I think I’m going to get rid of the blog roll. This will free up space for badges and links to things that are important to me. I plan on regularly posting about blogs I love and including links to people who are writing about subjects I feel passionate about. Quality, not quantity.
Mia is a pain in the butt! She hates the new diet she’s on and is not shy about letting me know. She stomps around each morning waiting for her usual stuff and then gives me this look when I put down the new food ...
She’s also a bit shaky and that makes me anxious. There’s always been a question of whether she has neurological issues and the stress of being to the vet so many times and a change in her routine has made her a bit more batty.
I continue to give lots of TLC and think good thoughts.
Speaking of anxiety – my disability claim is still under review and money is a constant concern. Just yesterday they asked for something that I sent them weeks ago. I sent it again. Each tiny step appears to have weeks of review in between. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if all of us could work that way?
My ankle and knees hurt more than ever and I know physical therapy would help but without medical insurance that is not possible. I need to begin the process of applying for Medicaid or whatever other state aid I’m supposedly qualified for. Ask 10 agencies and you get 20 answers. I have worked since I was 13 years old. At one point when I was barely 18 I supported myself, my baby and my siblings. Asking for help is not something I am good at.
All this stress has caused a lot of tension on the home front. I have started and stopped many posts on this subject. I’m not good at telling a story without telling the whole story and since this story involves writing about other people I find myself flummoxed at the moment. I will say that my son’s reaction to my current situation is a huge disappointment to me. My DIL and I barely speak and that is heartbreaking to me since my grandchild will be here in just a few weeks. I can’t help but feel that my value here was in my working 2 jobs and contributing enough to make their lives more comfortable. I was never home and bills were always paid. Now that’s changed and so have they. I’d love to talk to the shrink about that but without the insurance I have stopped seeing her.
Enough of that. I’m getting on my own nerves again. Let’s conclude on a silly note.
WTF was with Ty the wooden cowboy making it into the Dancing With the Stars finals over Lil’ Kim. That’s insane. Who is his fan base? Or was it Jewel’s (his wife) fans? Or is that rappers aren’t mainstream prime time TV? The studio audience was shocked and I heard many boos. I won’t argue that Ty improved over the weeks and I suppose he has a regular guy appeal but I’m sorry – he’s boring and bland beyond belief and I continue to despise what he does for a living.
Happy Hump Day kids.
I'm gonna grab my cane and go out and play in a puddle.