Friday, February 15, 2013

I'm Not Here, and Not All There


I’ve been a lackluster blogger lately. Family drama, finances and health issues are weighing me down and I’m having a difficult time focusing for more than a few moments at a time.

I read someone’s post 3 times before it really registers and by then I don’t remember what I wanted to comment. I’m one of those bloggers who doesn’t like to post a lot or join a photo meme if she’s not going to visit others.

I was going to unload a few details of all my crapola but the family stuff involves others and I can’t figure out how to write about them and keep them anonymous at the same time. 



The finances are WTF could anyone do unless you win lotto and want to give me some money. 


And I’m so sick of my own body. I just fuckin’ hate it right now and don’t get me started on doctors; if all you want to do as a doctor is make money then be a plastic surgeon. Hell, the casts of the Real Housewives shows will send all your kids to Ivy League and let you have a trophy wife and a whore.

If you’re a Primary Care doctor than take care of primary needs and fucking care a bit.

So there I am. I’ll get over myself. 




Love Youse Guys

28 comments:

Jackie said...

Aw crap :( I'm sorry I'm the wrong side of the Pond to give you a real hug and a hand, but here's a virtual one instead (((((Dianne)))))

Akelamalu said...

Hope things improve soon Dianne. x

Ron said...

"If you’re a Primary Care doctor than take care of primary needs and fucking care a bit."

AMEN! And the next time you and I talk on the phone, I have to tell you about all the CRAP my mother went through with her primary doctor before she passed away. It was a nightmare.

You take care, okay?

Sending ya HUGE hug, Dianne....

(((((( You )))))))

X ya, dear lady!

CrystalChick said...

Dang, did you sneak into my drafts folder for some of this?? LOL Hey, I hear ya. Well, not toooo much family drama at the moment, but that could change any second so I better be quiet.
I'm *trying* to be a better blogger but I'll get lazy about it again real soon, I'm sure.
That second photo.... yes! Love it.

{{{HUGS}}}

Jay Simser said...

Yep, I know.. The only thing saving me right now is the fact that Spring is coming (I can feel it in the air) and Miss Molly who sometimes looks over at me from her couch and then comes over and makes me put the computer away and let me up on my lap for hugs and snuggles. I think you need some Hope time. LOVE being sent to you.

Happy Elf Mom said...

Much as I want to hear EVERYTHING, you're right not to post it all if you can't keep your family anonymous. Sometimes I wish I could come out and spill all the beans too. Sometimes I think no one would believe me if I did!

Then I think, everyone else probably has the same thoughts. Only no one is sharing them. ((hug))

Sylvia K said...

I do so understand! Rant on, girl, you've earned the right! I just hope things improve, you deserve better than this!! I'm always here to listen! Hugs to you and to Hope!!

Rambling Woods said...

Dianne..I hear you..I am hear if you need an ear...vent away..sometimes things just suck...hugs...Michelle

OldLady Of The Hills said...

So sorry you are going through such hard times, my dear...Just Hug HOPE a lot, while waiting for the primary to "care".....OY!
Sometimes life just sucks, Big Time!!! Sending Hugs, My Dear
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

Mike said...

Keep on keepin' on.

JC said...

It helps to write it all out, like you just did.

It's your blog, you can do what you want.

If life is just terrible, let your sould leak out and maybe you'll get a bit of relief from the frustration of it all.

xo,
JC

LL Cool Joe said...

Oh damn, I'm sorry you sound like you are having a tough time at the moment, but that miserable cat always makes me smile.

I hope things improve for you very soon.

I'm With Stupid said...

Hang in there babe!

If you want, I'll come over and play doctor with ya. ;-)

Jay

Sallie (FullTime-Life) said...

We love you too dear Lady! Carver has that thing on her blog that says "to avoid spilling anyone else's guts, this blog is mostly about myself." I like that, I never know whether it is OK to talk about my family and friends -- even when it's good stuff -- so I can understand why you don't want to blog problems.

Really sorry 'bout the continuing problems with your (so-called) primary care drs. That's crap.

And for heaven's sake don't feel guilty for not visiting etc etc....take care of yourself. Hug Hope. And the kitties.

Linda Reeder said...

My issues are small compared to yours, but I am finding out how hard it is to get through to doctors and actually get the help you need. Most are good at jumping to conclusions to save time and not very good at listening. THEY may have heard the same story before many times over, but each case is a new and different person for whom this is a new and real experience, and no two people are exactly the same.
I love the grumpy cat!

missing moments said...

Rant all you want. It's therapeutic! Love that grumpy kitty!

Jeff B said...

Sometimes life just gives us a shit sandwich to eat. Sorry you've at the dinner table for it right now.

Hope things get better for you.

Granny Annie said...

Liked this:)

DJan said...

I am so sorry to hear things are not great in the Hope household. I understand perfectly about the primary care doctor situation, although my cute young guy does his best. I try to stay out of the doctor's office unless I really need to go.

You are channeling the feelings of lots of people right now, Dianne. I'm hoping things get better and that you rant all you want in the meantime! :-)

Lowell said...

A tough patch! The cat says it all. I agree with re to "primary care" docs. I've had one really good one, but not lately. Maybe we should call them primate care docs?

Life is hard. Unless you're born with a silver spoon. And a lot of those folks go crazy, so...

ds said...

hang in there...

ellen abbott said...

this is my mantra when the whole world goes to shit. or maybe just my world...it's only temporary.

Hilary said...

I hate this for you, Dianne. I so wish I could help. Sending big hugs and love your way.

Cherie said...

Having to deal with doctors in my work over the years has left me somewhat cynical. I'm sorry but not surprised that it's been less than great. It's part of the reason I avoid them though I know that this is no answer for you. I'm sorry sweetie.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

I sincerely hope things get better Dianne.

caregiver/Gin said...

I, too, am sick of hearing myself complain about health issues. Don't even consider money anymore...where would that lead. Let's get in line at the Lotto store Dianne. And we can chat up a storm about health care and aging. See you there! Gin

Daryl said...

other than hugs i have nothing

HermanTurnip said...

If Grumpy Cat can't put a smile on your face...

And on the subject of doctors, I'm currently in the market for a new one. My primary care physician is so overbooked that it takes over a week before I can see her for anything. That's bull.